Life's Lessons Part 3

The next 2 weeks were spent laughing , playing, talking and being free. Everything a "family" should be. Only this wasn't my family.Why, why couldn't it have been? My best friend and my daughter, we were so happy together. Life couldn't get much better, this little cabin in the woods on the river. I was free, I was home. But it wasn't my home.Two weeks later reality set in and it was time to return to my life. As miserable as that seemed, I had this beautiful little girl that needed her daddy. I got on that plane and left a part of me behind.I was back in NC ready to deal with my life and move forward as I was supposed to. The homecoming was what I knew it would be, cold. Did you miss us even a little? Did you even notice we were gone? I never even got to unpack the suitcase and I knew what I had do...Starting over...a new life...a new beginning...Ohio, NJ, back to Ohio, Michigan! Yes, I was off to Michigan. My best friend was willing to give us a place to figure out what our next move would be.It was a struggle, it was crowded, me and my little girl, Doug, his boyfriend and his girlfriend.Yes, I said that right. I guess he was still struggling.It didn't work we had to go, he made the decision for me, he decided when and how, that was it we were out. In the middle of the woods, nowhere to go. It was a rough night that first night. But once again, it was a turning point.A family of angels took us in, they shared their home with us. They made us part of their family even though they were virtually strangers. I was on a list for our own place but it would take time.A few months later, we were on our own. Finally a home of our own! Just us girls!Reality check! ...Blinding pain, total darkness... I think my head exploded! Ambulance flashing lights, emergency room. I hear the doctors talking to my friends on the other side of the curtain. Die??? Who's gonna die? Not me!!! I have a beautiful little girl that will be home from her dad's next week. I can't die! Please, don't let me die!!! She needs me! Why can't they hear me! Lift off, I am in the helicopter being flown to God know's where! I wake up in a dimly lit hallway, concrete walls, oh, that smell, another hospital, why am I alone why does it look like I am in a basement? Did I die? I am not able to speak, where is everyone?I wake up in a hospital room, why does my leg hurt? why does my head hurt so much? What happened and where am I? I find the call button and ask the nurse what happened. Brain surgery? Anurism? Seizures what does this mean? I have to get home I need to be there for my daughter.Mike...Mike is this guy that is friends with my babysitter's husband I met him just days before this. He comes to see me, he travels 6 hours just to see me. He brings me dinner he is really sweet.Home...Mike still comes to see me, he takes care of me, he comforts me, he courts me, flowers, candy, dinners, movies, long phone conversations, weekend trips, lunches, beautiful cards what more could I want!Posted by Martiw at Saturday, October 25, 2008 0